Don't know

Now... my mood is down.

I have no idea what is the source affect me.

but One thing that I know is I feel lonely..

I wish I have a DAGGER that I can reverse the time.

last monday I have a fight with my younger brother, Jolland.

He was a good sleeper, since he was young.

this one I can accepted. but I disliker his temper.

well, that was happenned in the morning.

7something my dad has woke him up for work.

8something I have waken because of sound of water.

then I go to maple.

he come out from bathroom.

and he ask me fetch him to work.

I ignore him because he can go out with my dad.

but he didn't because he sleep inside toilet about an hour.

everynight he come back home around 2-3.

and this cause him has not enought sleep.

some more he didn't ask with polite.

at the begen, I talk he'll walk to his work place.

awhile later, he ask me again. I ignore him.

and he turn back fight with me.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.

after the fight. I have send him to work.

and he doesn't show his grateful to me.

I was really unhappy to his attitude.

I drop off the car and ask him to say thank you.

but nothing that I get.

I was very upset that I have transform my brother to this.

we used to have a good brotherhood

He once a good kid. and he result was better then me alot.

when I came to my dad here. I have change my characteristic.

I start to ignore him and join others guy.

I have stop him from following me.

I'm the one who was change his future.

and now I cant do anything to him.

I wish I can pull him back from bad habit.

If I can I wish I were him. and he were be me.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

now we cant talk nicely to each others.

all is my fault.

I wish he has all the good thing that I have.

I hope he will start thinking his future.

and I want him to be more mature.

>>>>>>>>>>>>

my bad habit is I hate to face the problem that I facing.

since I were young.

I'm wondering Is my family problem affect me to this?

Or either I should blame myself why don't face the problem.

I need a good listener.

but no one willing like to hear my nonsence history.